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valentine

Work has been going well. It’s coming up on our fiscal year end so, inventory is just around the corner and I expect things to get just a little bit hectic and stressful. We also have our yearly Drive Training Seminar that we host, which falls during that same week.

So, Yesterday was Valentine’s day. I spent the evening alone at home with the man and we turned off our phones (well, ignored them) and barbecued some super delicious burgers and had a drink together. I bought one of his favorite beers and poured myself a glass of Spumante sparkling wine with frozen blueberries. I also made him his favorite cheese cake and I even added a sweet cherry topping. People seem to make a big deal about Valentine’s day and how horrible guys are if they don’t get their women flowers or chocolates. I think that it’s nobody’s business what you do as a couple and people need to chill out. It’s funny the way society has dictated what is considered an “acceptable” behavior for everyone. I think the time Kirk and I spent together, doing the things we like to do says more about our appreciation for each other than if he would have mindlessly bought me flowers (that I don’t like to get, by the way) or chocolates (the very thing I limit myself to eating each day anyway). He mentioned that people at his office gave him a hard time all day about what he “wasn’t” doing for me, when really, he gave me the only thing I wanted, his undivided attention.

running out of options

Things have been getting a little too much to handle lately. If it isn’t one crisis, it’s another. I can find no escape because there are issues at hand that need to be taken care of and there are expectations that I step up. Everyone is pitching in the best way they know how, but yet, it all falls short of actually getting anything accomplished. I’ve been trying to focus on one thing at a time but get hit with another blow before finding a resolution to the problem before it. I honestly don’t know how much more I can take before there is a complete and total breakdown. I try to keep my sights on the positive and put effort into what I feel is truly my responsibility, but all the while, I struggle with constant guilt of if what I’ve chosen is ultimately the right thing.

something from a draft 11.15.11

The reason I love movies so much is that there is always a story to tell. Some stories are not so good while others touch you on a level you wouldn’t have known without them. I recently watched two movies that have stuck with me since seeing them. “Remember Me” and “The Devils Arithmetic”. Both have left me with a sense of sadness but also a sense of reality. I often shut out the harshness of the world because if I don’t, it has potential to completely destroy my faith in people. And humans are at the root of all evil in this world. Many are so driven by their teachings and beliefs that they have completely lost all compassion and understanding of their fellow man. I will never be able to comprehend that.

The stories told make it real for me but at the same time, offering an *out* when the emotions boil over because I can easily recall that the movie was that of “fiction” in the very instant I watched it. But once I’ve seen and heard, I can’t dismiss the fact that real people have actually dealt with things in life that I haven’t (thankfully) experienced and it makes me that much more grateful for what I’ve got and the life I lead.

go unnoticed, let the freedom wash away

now that i have left, it seems that things are better. how does that happen?  i struggled for months and in the two days i make my final decision and walk away, things change?  my glass is now half empty… but only because i continue to drink from it. there are new tunes i will be spinning when i leave here. i’m only sixty-minus-twenty minutes away.  i’m hoping i find a solution soon. i don’t like feeling this helpless.

oh, brother

so, my mosaicglobe blog/website seems to have been obliterated and i don’t know if i will have access to any of my content i have stored there. i’m almost scared to try to re-start a blog again but i will try and see what happens. :(

forget

i had forgotten
until you reminded me
and now i shall think on what to do next

words

you say them
far more often than
you mean them